Well in two days I've been evicted, and found a new place. I'm really happy because honestly it feels like I'm shedding my old skin.
Sure okay, the other place will look like a true blue bachelor pad and I'm okay with that. Tiny almost non-existent kitchen and tiny mini-fridge. I'll see how I get on with what's there and figure out if I need to get a mini-fridge to supplement food storage. I think this place's size will be good for me. Easier to clean a smaller space.file:///usr/share/ubuntu-artwork/home/index.html
I'm also at a loss. I have a couple people that I'd like to ask to design some artwork or something to put on my walls. Something kinky, something gay, something me. Just not sure what... Maybe I can talk to S, or maybe A to make some art for my new place. Love to talk to M about a comforter, curtains, computer chair cover, and futon cover and a couple other things I'd like for me. I'm afraid to ask...
I'm also determined to make it homey, and comfortable for me.
I dunno how that will be done... no idea. I don't have money to get how I'd like it to look come to life and as per usual I'm stuck with furniture that carries negative memories for me. I dunno.. baaah
Alright, so obviously lots of drama and stuff going on.
Parents came over for a pow wow and I called my landlord demanding a letter saying everything he said in writing and I have two witnesses to me calling and leaving a voicemail.
We went out and saw an apartment which is really tiny but we're in a pinch and I need to move in like 9 days so... It'll do for a year. So 425 per month with air conditioning (in the summer) cable tv, wireless internet and hydro included which one has to admit is awesome.
So drama is over, now the work of packing up and moving starts. I want to get started today. I want someone with a car who can go back and forth between here and there and help me get some things over there that are movable like my books, my TV, etc...
I just want all this done NOW... I want to claim the space. I want to make that space of mine, that haven scream Kristina. XD
Now... How the hell do I do that with now money...
Seems I'm back to my old relationship with M, she's venting at me, and I'm... holding back at her because as usual her shit is worse than mine. I love the gal but without intending to she competes for issues and it is frustrating.
Welcome to the land of my thought-excrement and melodrama!
I am now "dying" from period cramps, back pain and general discomfort plus constipation! Fun! Stress induced -- No shit!
Not looking forward to hanging out with the parents this afternoon. I'm kind of scared they are just going shit all over me and make me feel miserable as per usual. I feel like a dumb ass already and I really don't need my lack of financial management skills rubbed in my face particularly when it's being debated that I'm Bipolar and one of the symptoms of hypomania is spending money stupidly.
They will probably want to try to fight the landlords decision, while I'm like who cares we wanted me out we now have that chance. Let's fucking take it! Sure I have no idea where in Gatineau (Gatineau, Hull, Aylmer) that will take someone with no references, shit credit, with pets on welfare in the price range I can afford, hydro included all in 9 days.
Funny, I'm not venting at M. I don't even want to for fear that what I'm venting about is "trivial" or "self-ish". Instead I'm talking to N who is funny, and from what I understand physically affectionate, and super tolerant and nice.
Been pounding the net looking at apartments costing below 500$/month hopefully including hydro. Sent out like 30+ e-mails now waiting for replies about my "are pets allowed" and "is hydro included" questions.
My parents are coming over between 2-3 pm to discuss this. I hope they won't get all high and mighty on me because I can't handle it right now. Honestly, I want to rip hair out of my head, and just hang myself in the closet and with my last dying breath disembowel myself to make a statement on how wrong this all is.
M has been behaving the same as she used to but I feel that her communication with me is forced which makes me uncomfortable. She's forcing herself, I'm not making her so I cannot claim responsibility for it.
Oh, I found a way that supposedly lets Vox take all ones journal posts from another site and put them here, but guess what... it doesn't work. I had to send off a complaint to them. I suppose it'll have to be a manual copy/past method then. Buggerit.
Well... I should get dressed but the cramps and discomfort from the period make me just really want to stay wrapped up in my blanket and sleep but I can't. Must find housing... within 9 days. Gah!
Well, livejournal is doing all kinds of bizarre things with their company so I'm trying a bunch of different blogging services to find one that finds what I want/need.
If I decide to stay here on Vox I am gonna have some things I will need to find out. Like how to move all my stuff over in one swoop, and if I can use a software to post because I'm lazy.
I've tried blogger.com which was strange. I'm normally a huge google fan but I had a hard time figuring out how blogger worked. I tried opendiary but their site is just too... ugly for me, I've tried insanejournal same thing. Bah...
At least here the site is pretty-ish, and it works similarly to how LJ works so that should do it.
I've had a ton of drama in the past few days... My "best" friend suddenly decided I did all these terrible things while I disagree and think I did nothing wrong. I do agree that calling her hubby to talk to him may have been the wrong move but even then painting me as a self-ish bitch just doesn't fit. I think we've sorted it out but I'm confused because she's acting like "nothing" ever happened which boggles my mind.
I also got news from my landlord that he wants me out of my apartment by April 1st. So... 9 days to find a new home and move in. Lovely. So that is a ton of pressure there so yeah. I'm having a pow wow with my parents today about it. No idea what will come of that I just hope they don't come in and start panicking at me as I'm stressed out enough.
I'm still fighting depresssion/whatever every day. Today I just want to collapse and cry. I'm drained. I barely slept last night, I had strange dreams all night of people chasing and beating the crap out of me. I just don't know.
I may have to call crisis centers and see if they can direct me to cheap housing.
